on the ferry

march past

donning of jockey cap

Finally found time to come online..has been so busy this whole week. Yst was parent teacher meeting..got to go back school on a saturday and rush for lessons in the afternoon. hardly even have time for family on weekdays and now lagi jia lat.

dear had his POP this tuesday! 9th Dec! had so much fun on the ferry sitting on the top level where u can feel the sea breeze!

SHayenne's teething! 2 small teeth growing on her lower front. so cute. and she's starting to make those pa,pa,pa words

YEAHS!! ITS THE WEEKENDS AND HOLIDAYS!!

HAHA!simply love weekends and hoildays now.no work,dear's home!triple hooray!

Have been sooosoooosooo busy and stress with work this week.very tiring.3 new students enrolled into my class.all are crying koala bears.and of cause I'm their tree.Got so many things things to do yet so little time.And most tiring thing is from the moment you enter the centre and out the centre,you got no time to rest and relax at all..

Shayenne's starting to say "papapapapa.."so cute.It's the talking motor skills not exactly saying PAPa.

some pictures of my PG 1 and 2

JUST DO IT!
jor's mum took shayenne out to gai-gai.was so bored at home and it was scorching hot outside.Suddenly felt like swimming.Within 5 minutes I packed up my stuff and went down to buy a swimming costume which I got a discount of 90 cents...was ages since i last swam.for a year maybe.
when u feel like doing something, just do it!

urgh..school's started.and i dont like it.finally found a time to blog after so many days.schedule was so hectic.hardly have anytime to rest expect sleeping time.

75% of my class comprises of malay,15% indian,10% chinese.and out of the 10% chinese,I'm the only young one there.OMG. how to survive.the whole class is practically aunties.

doing up the portfolio for PG1 and 2.so many upcoming activities to do.yearbook,curriculum training wat so ever.why did i ever chose this line in the first place?i wanna be a policewoman!boo hoo hoo

come home quick and save me from this!

as i was lying on my bed.i was thinking,am i really passionate abt my current job now?or am just passing time working in a childcare?do i really want to study the diploma they offer me.then i realise-i dont feel passionate and looking forward to my job everyday.I'm really just passing time there.and i want the dip for the sake of becas it's a DIPLOMA.then i realise how serious my problem is.lets say if I'm really taking up the offer,i've got to stay working as a childcare teacher for 3 and a half years (2 years ofstudy and 1 .5 years of study bond and above that i'll get paid for studying while working so the $$$ is not a bad sum though the pay is only 3 digit.)HOWEVER,its gonna be VERY VERY VERY tough cas dear's also pursuing his army career now and may not be home often.so u see???no husband??






talked to dear over the phone regarding our future and our career.i told him-"if we have no baby now,i'll defintely sign on police or other UG.but given my current O level status,i'll only be a corporal.so it's not worth to sign on now.might as be bonded with the childcare,at least got ppl to take care of shayenne and get a dip to start off with a better rank in police.but very very very xin ku larh,got to suffer for 3.5 years and i really feel very stressful working there.






dear told me that he'll support wateva decision i make.but it's still afterall better to stick with the childcare and get a diploma first.afterall shayenne is still young.by the time i finish my study bond with company.shayenne will be about 4 years old,by that time he's army career and income will also be stable and i can pursue my police career.even though it's gonna be tough on me for the next 4 years or so but what you reap is what you sow..we'll got to work hard and support each other through and be there for each other,for the sake of us and shayenne






???(wha...)and i think think think..ya..starting a family isn't that easy.there is no short cut way to it.o level will bring uto no where in times of recession like this.since im given a chance to study and work and with ppl taking care of shayenne at the same time,y not???endure for the next 4 years...yeah?afterall something is better than nothing!

do u believe tt miracles happen?

i do..i prayed for it and within the next 30secs my wish came true.i thought i was dreaming but it's no coincidence.thank you god.

just sent dear off to tekong again.same mood.went swensens for lunch.heex

went to changi hospital to visit jor's ah ma.shayenne wore her new cow suit.super cute.she has really grown alot.

I'm unwell again.went to see doc and take mc..everythings not good..

cooked cheng teng yst night.dear was suppose to come home on thurs but now became friday.dear was supppose to be home now.but he's confined till tmr..which is like wtf* super pissed.

few days ago,one girl from my class cant get to toilet in time and she pooed on her pants.the worses thing is that a piece of her poo dropped on my feet.got to wash her pants and butt butt..

gonna be so bored at home.

just send dear off to tekong..depressing..was stoning all the way back home.no mood

really enjoyed the time we spent tgt these few days.

mr botak took home a whole load of sandy,muddy,dirty,smelly uniforms from his field camp.which we spent the whole night washing by hands till 1 am.but it was fun.hehee

got dear's mum to help us take care of baby yst while we go par tor.haha.went to watch the coffin at amk hub.story line not very good but lots of "surprises" which makes u jolt out of the seat.it has been super duper long since we lastnwatched a movie.went pool-ing after that.the whole place was flooded with people.woots! totally like the times when we were dating. lols. quality time over quantity time. was really very sweet these few days. =)

arghs.work tmr.mentally drained u know....tired...

I AM TAKING CARE OF TERRORIST KIDS!!!

Argh!!im very very very stress up with my work.besides having to take care of playgroup (2-3 yrs old) 1 and 2.still got to prepare lesson plan for every week,portfolio,worksheet file,artwork file,send home folder,take pictures of and for every single kid.

how come kids nowadays are @#$#$#%^^^% ??? kids are being treated like "king" at home,giving us teachers a hard time.childcare work is really tough and long hours.one mus be really be very dedicated and passionate towards this job..must have very very good patience as well.and im trying very hard to.

I'm really very tired.after work still got to carry shayenne all the way home.do household chores.pack all the stuff...shag out totally.

just wanna dear to faster come home and help me out..tsk tsk tsk =(

oh gawd..i'm so drained...kids nowadays are totally haywire. working with kids gives u headache and high blood pressure! this cry that cry baby cry,kids go running around throwing toys and fighting with their friends.could be quite nerve breaking sometimes.

we are their part time daddy/mummy/ah gong/ah ma
we are their part time entertainer
we are their part time maid
we are their part time discipline master
we are their part time teacher

first day of infantcare.shayenne cry like hell.could even hear her from the classroom.kinda heartbreak ah..haha.so far so gd,not bad..

i am so tired.goodnight.

the happy family (tt's baby xander!)


this is baby shayenne



pastor chris solemnising




exchange of vows

daddies

some pictures of abi's wedding at the merlion park.more to uplaod..

dear dear is in field camp now..totally no contact =) appreciating the time alone..i'm starting work tmr!bringing shayenne to her new childcare also!can work and see her at the same time..gonna be a hectic schedule..got to to work,study and take care of shayenne at the same time...phew..god bless me

super super super bored at home...take me to another place now!!i don't mind going tekong to get tekan and shag out..it's better off rotting at home..

took some pictures of gal..dear's mom brought back a MERCEDEZ for gal..haha let her to try on it..very cute.very funny.

it's 2am.goodnight

super depressing..dear's back to tekong again.suddenly recieve notice that he's going field camp this saturday.which means he'll only be back next saturday.oh wells...wat can we do???

anyways..met up with von for dinner at macs.enjoyed so much talking to her.talked abt abi's wedding this coming sat and lots of last time memories in SJC and npcc..

still rmbed thailand trip during our Sec 1.was bathing with yiying,and we forgot to take towel .so i had to went out half naked and got discovered by forgotten which maam.tt was sooooo embarrasing.geography trip to malaysia..lol.so many hilarious moments..and not forgetting our clique was called Y.M.C.A (Yvonne,Mei dan,Carmen,Adeline) and our name still lies somewhere on the punggol end wall!

rmb the times when we went some ulu playground near chomp chomp and they was a grass slope near-by.so i asked why not lets roll down the slope!hahaa.we were still in our sch uniform then.but nevertheless,we still rolled down the slope =)fun fun fun!!

IJ friends are friends for life.this is so true...

dear will be home tmr!!!

yeah yeah yeah =) prepared lots of stuff for him!got to cook crysanthemun tea for dear ltr too.
went to submit the application for the course in pre sch teaching today at bugis.got to push shayenne along too.kinda troublesome.but i managed!

after that,took a train from bugis all the way to woodland and changed bus to sister jasmine hse for dinner.super long journey.train-sicked.

and now I'm home sweet home!

HAPPY 30TH MONTHSARY DEAR!

hellos everyone! it has been like 5 months since i last blogged!

and I'm back!

time really flies.blink blink.my dear shayenne has turned 4 months.getting naughtier and naughtier.simply having fun with her 24/7.full time mommy

will continue to start my job on nov.yeas.working now in a childcare call Cherie Hearts.quite an established childcare.will be sending shayenne to the infantcare at the same centre too.also they'll be sponsoring me for the dip in pre sch teaching.

my plans?

intending to complete my study bond with them.then...either sign on with the army or the police with a diploma.

updates on labour day!:

18 June 2008(what to expect on delivery day!)

9am:started having stomachache.feels like you've ate something wrong and you just wanna shit.sat in the toilet for 1/2 hour but nothing comes out.feels abit of back ache

10am:called sister jasmine(a lady from church whom i was staying with) and told her I think I am going into labour.started bleeding abit.sms-ed dear whom was working.told him i'm most probably going into labour.he got so happy n excited.like finally the day has arrived.pain started coming every 10-15 minutes.i practically lied on the bed and timed every minute.

1pm:sister jasmine friend drove us to gleneagles hosp.went to see gynae first.confirmed that I was 3 cm dilated and I'm gonna give birth!

2pm:being admitted and wheeled into labour ward.the labour ward was so nicely furnished and cosy.sofa for baby's daddy.television.toilet.you got the whole room to yourself.changed into a bare back gown.nurse stripped me to this headphone device that monitor's baby heartbeat.so thruout the birth process you could hear pob-pob-pob-pob

2.30pm:dear rushed down to the ward.everything was still ok.could laugh,joke and watch tv.the pain was still managable.

5pm plus:water bag broke.had no feeling.just kept feeling that I was bleeding profusely.pain started to become painer.was grabbing dear's hand.didn't feel like saying anything.endured till I couldn't and ask for the gas mask.so i was breathing and breathing whenevr the pain came.

7pm plus:i was on my verge of breaking down.nurses kept asking on whether do i need an epidural(happy-dural).imagine poking a needle and tube at your spine?!crazy,as if i would.i would rather breath my gas and scream my way thru.which was wat i did.kept squeezing dear's hand all the way.was groaning and crying in pain.

somehow all women have bad temper when they're giving birth.dear kept comforting me to keep quiet,to relax and ask me to breath properly.even attempted to take my gas mask away cas i was breathing in too much.was very pissed off with him at that time.haha.dunno why?try asking a women who's in labour pain to do something and you'll be snapped at.didnt felt like talking.so i was cursing and swearing at him in my heart.haha.he don't know that.he was abit pissed off too cause I wasn't breathing properly like all the other woman do in those tv shows.haha

9pm plus:the PAINER became PAINEST!i was practically screaming every time the pain comes.omigod.the pain is the kind of pain you could never imagine the pain..yea.was screaming and squeezing dear's hand like you cld almost crush his bones for he got you pregnant and he's not the one going thru the PAINEST period!you just felt like you're never ever want to give birth again and dear god jus ask the baby to come out NOW.

finally.at 9.21pm.i felt the urge to push.gynae wasnt there but the senior nurse was there.and dear didn't allow me to push(i cursed him again)...haha.baby was alr crowning(head starting to appear)didn't care for anything at that moment.just kept breathing frantically into the gas mask and screaming into it.kept my eyes close i dunno why.probably too pain to open.the next thing i saw was the doctor in full attire and many nurse pushing my stomach down.PUSHHHH!!! so i was given the green light to push.HAH.was screaming so loudly till the doctor asked dear to cover my mouth and keep quiet.lol..was "caking" my screams into dear's hand.while pushing,i knew doctor was cutting my down there but it felt really nothing.at the 3rd push,i felt something big slipped out and then SHayenne's cry!the final pain while pushing is like something big stuck down there and you feel like you haven't shitted for a million years.yeap

was totally exhausted and blurred from breathing the gas mask.didn't manage to see my birth process.but got a glimpse of baby's umbillical cord (just like pig intestine).baby was weighed and a tube was inserted into her stomach to suck out the amniotic fluid.dear kept feeling so heartbreak cas that procedure look painful to shayenne.but at tt pt of time i was thinking 'serve her right to feel pain.who ask her give me so much pain'.haha.quite bad hurr.then i slowly gain back my alertness.tears started flowing.it was tears of joy...

AFTER BIRTH

thank god everything's over?NOoo...down there will be bleeding the blood for the past 9 months.the wound down there will be raw and painful.practically lied on the bed and didn't moved my lower part of my body for the entire night.felt really uncomfortable.couldn't really sleep thruout the whole night.kept thinking of baby which i didn't even get to carry after birth.

ConClusion

giving birth is fun and unforgettable!

went for check up today.3 more weeks!

gynae says baby head is turning down and she weighs bout 2kg plus plus alr..feeling so heavy n uncomfortable with the tummy.
getting more n more excited for the baby to arrive :))

will be delivering at Gleneagles..so dear friends wait for my good news!

One more month and baby will be out!

The gynae estimated that baby will be out on the 15th of June!which is so coincidently my birthday and fathers' day!so looking forward to it!
Really cant wait to see baby Shayenne 朱 诗 恩 (:

I MISS
i miss wearing the blue pinafore
i miss the recess time we had tgt
i miss the canteen food
i miss climbing the stairs and changing classroom every lesson
i miss singing the national anthem every 7.20 in the morning
i miss the after school hangouts at compass
i miss the times when we were having np trainings
i miss the times when we were training tgt for competitions
i miss wearing the beret that looks like a cook hat
i miss the punishments we did tgt
i miss the changing parades when we stink up the whole toilet
i miss singing cheers with my squadmates

how nice if time could turn back again

23 APRIL 2008
Happy 2 years anniversary!
yeap!finally after so long so many events we've been tgt for 2 years!

went for check up today.got my blood test report.everything was okay expect my red blood cells was abit low.got to eat more red meat.doctor says shyanne is about 1kg now!didn't get to see baby shayenne face today as her face was not faced out..only saw her heartbeat beating.haha
yup.most of my friends and some relatives should have alr know abt my situation now..wasnt prepared to tell anyone abt it but sometimes i jus cant handle stuffs alone especially when this is a lifetime decision and commitment.there is no pt hiding and lying everything, pushing everything down myself keeping quiet..i dun wanna lead a hide and seek life anymore..

My confession
...dear and i will be havin a baby soon :)and yes this is an unplanned pregnancy..have been hearing alot of advices and soughting help from many many many people..and finally our decision was to keep baby and start a family,and of cas we'll be getting solemnized sometime next month..

I have also hurt my parent alot alot..mum's havin a depression over this.though i dont tell them how i feel..i stil cry alot alot everytime i think of them everytime someone mentions abt them..i really know i've hurt them alot alot and nothing can be done now to undo their hurt and tears...i jus pray and hope that their pain will ease as time passes.

it hurts even more to know that you've hurt the one who loves you most,there's only hurt when there's love

our current plans now is
1. to quickly find a hse to stay..preferably dear's parent home..
2.dear to sign on police

there is jus so many things to prepare mentally and financially..it's really a very very tough and unclear road ahead of what's going to happen..jus hav to be mentally prepared for anything and everything..come what may..really hope this baby will be our source of motivation and determination :)

Anyway..will be naming our baby girl Shayenne Choo Shi En..baby will be due in this year mid June..which is abt 2 months time :) glad that she's healthy and everything's okay..shayenne's kicking and punching more often now..hiccups alot too..haha..dear's kinda excited and sometimes too over-concerned abt baby..kept isisting to buy the classical music which has Mozart and Beetoven for baby to listen..but most of the time i would end up asleep from listening..so i don't know whether baby's listening or not..haa..if not he'll always say why my tummy still so small,y baby still so small..other pregnant woman 7 mths stomach so big..lol..and everyday without fail,he'll be asking whether i drink milk alr not,eat vitamins alr not..

shared many many things with dear abt baby..like wat sch we wld want her to go to..wat courses we'll send her for..how will we raise her up etc etc..really wondering what kind of parent dear and i will be next time..how our child will be like in the future...

didi's birhtday today! happy birthday :)) held a birthday party for him last week at home..and today was dinner at Swensen's :))

went queensway yst with dear to buy shoe..apparently we walked and looked in shoe shop to look for his "ideal" shoe. dear had a weird taste.. keeps taking on fancy for those female shoes. oOps. LOL.. had to keep telling that.. bought a billabong slipper for my bro as his bdae present..dear paid for it.didnt want him to..thks dear.

still surviving so far..17 june seems nearer and nearer..yeaps..

HAPPY HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY DEAR DEAR!

finally gotten our pay from Humming House! three digit number only..got to save up the $$$!

anyways..was dear's bdae today...brought him all the way till Clementi's Sakura for a buffet

dinner! super full..ate from 7 till 9 plus..chiong-ed all the way till we were fully bloated :)

at 12 midnight of his bdae-ARCADE

our specially designed mango ice cream

and mango cake

"hypocrite wish making"

happy 20th bdae darling (:

She's gonna fly
When her time here is through
First she'll have to let go
Of some things she can't use
'Cause people and places
Memories and faces
Are just way too heavy it seems
To carry on angel's wings

am i just gonna let her go?...to somewhere she'll be happier...

welcome me back! haven been blogging for quite a while...

my life has been kinda screwed up..very very screwed...and nobody knows abt it...nobody knows evrything tt im going thru...

hardly been :)))) these few weeks...cant smile anymore

anyway found a new job... starting tmr.. working at someplace called HUmming bird (something like NOEL) yeah.. gifts, flowers, bouquets, wraths and suchs... doesnt pay quite well but at least im workin! im contributing to my pocket...

dear taught me how to play mahjong and bingo using mahjong within one day..haha..now i noe how to play le!!! but still undergoing training.

haven been blogging lately..lazyness has took over me!

monday blues.went to the food expo last week with dear.saw plenty plenty of food and ate alot alot of food.ate the ma la fishball till our nose were watering..

saw tiang and chael coincidently! my long lost classmate. heex, so happy :) i miss my friends so much.read the past year entries of my blog.haha everything seems just like yst.memories so close to my heart can yet only be memories :)

-lost in emotions- que sara que sara

whheehees!! -sick- thanks to the hectic schedule these few days....

anyway i've started work alr..started on monday. 1st day of work as a childcare teacher! was attached to the nursery class (N2) tgt with another partner!

9am: Start the national anthem and pledge taking (both english and chinese!). Then they'll start singing some songs and a compulsory "good morning" song..haha so cute..

9.30am: Start of english lesson. conducted by my partner.

10am: Bathing time! brought all the kids to the toilet and bathe for them..both boys and girls..haha..first time bathing kids! kinda troublesome..some had their own shampoo and soap and we've got to rmb...

11am: Playtime..got to rmb this boy and this boy cannot sit tgt cause they will fight...meanwhile read some storybooks for them..

11am plus plus: Lunchtime! don't have to feed them at all..

12.30: Nap time. Got to carry out the mattress for them..then they'll put the mattress cover themselves...meanwhile it's our lunchtime..haha.lunch is cooked for us..so watever the kids eat we eat..msged dear a while in the meantime..haha

2.30: wake up and teatime...

3.00: my chinese lesson time!! taught them about deepavali..got to say everything in chinese..abit stressful ah...tu yao jie..

3.30: Dance time..they would be practising a dance for their concert at 27 nov..

the rest of the time would be freetime for them...lots of things to rmb for the kids...have to adapt diff teaching techniques to the kids also..got to be firm with them..and tons of things to rmb...

haha but so far im loving my job!

Finally!! long time no blog le. internet was down...anyways..i've found myself a job! yes!

will be working as a childcare relief teacher...haha. starting work soon...gonna be fun!


todays our 18 months dear! happy happy happy one and a half year!!!

yeah! no work for today and tmr... went SPCA in the afternoon.. hee so excited!


went to view the pets for adoption.. saw alot of dogs..we could actually go in to play with them.. saw 3 husky and 2 big golden retriever..one was adopted by a man and it was so excited, probably jumping with joy that it has found a home..haha dear spent most of the time with the dogs while i was communicating with the cats..if i got the capabilty, i would adopt all the cats!

woke up at 11am today...so early..

went to eat lunch with dear first..then rented the 'THE EPIC MOVIE' to watch...ghaa..super lame and boring..waste of time and money..

went to SPCA to view the pets that are put up for adoption, but sadly, the viewing closes at 4..the lady gave us a adoption information paper and told us to come tmr. yup..so we'll be going down tmr.

brought dear to jalan kayu-yio chu kang the farmway road there to see puppies..saw a sign that says ANIMAL RESORT n PET something i cant rmb. walked in-such a long long route in! felt like we were hiking instead. finally! tadaas.....reached the animal farm..saw 2 goats. went to feed them with dried leaves. dear's shirt got bitten by the meh meh cause his shirt was green in colour...haha super funny..saw some german shephards..a puppy pug that was having flu and the mucus kept dripping out from the nose..

went over to the other side and saw a whole caged up place full of cats. about hundreds of them. meanwhile dear was having fun playing with a stray dog. on our way out the stray dog followed us and brought his "friends" along also...luckily the shopkeeper gave us a lift out of the farmway..thank god we need not walk out that long road.

went to the pet shop at serangoon there. told the lady that we were looking for miniature schnauzer. she immediately brought us to the back and showed us the puppies. it was so cute. she opened the cage and shoved one boy schnauzer to dear and the other female to me and let loose the third one. hahaa. schnauzer schnauzer! $1400 each. so dear and i intend to save up $$$$ and we'll share the $$$$ to buy one. went a total of 3 pet shop today just to look for M.S....

had dinner at dear's place, den went punggol park to play candle...in the end we set up a fire at the bbq pit there using dried leaves n twigs! was quite a succesful one. dear sent me home to punggol interchange...while waiting for his bus..saw a pair of les. kissing..oh mann. both were girls with long hair somemore..about 14-16 yrs old. they were either hugging or kissing most of the time..grossed out!

gonna look for new job soon..

happy 17 months my sweetie pie !!!

1 year and 5 months! geex... so many things and events had happened over this period of time. yup, you should know wat i mean. but still. nevertheless. however. we're still holding hand to hand walking this road tgt today..

noone else really love you as much as i do! so u must really treasure and cherish wat u still have now ( that is me! wahaaha) and build up that trust that is lost. yups.

whees...

was late for work today cause i overslept!

met alot of weird customers today. from korea, china, philipine...today was sosooo busy.probably due to the lantern festival. dear was the food runner today.poor thing..have to do so many things...lol.

*dudie, because you're my dear thats y i help you do so many things de ok. if not, i wun so good go help wash utensils and carry plates for u :) so i demand a 20% of your overall pay to be transfered to me!

sosoooo tired!

jus came home and gueess wat..its 4.25 in the morning...ended work late today,so many ppl..after work went to the back and they had leftover wine for us! hahaa...went to eat prata with dear after that...

started work at 7om today..but dear started at 6pm...so waited alone all the way till 7 then start work..busy busy day today...

shall frequently update my blog!

long time no update thou blog. what do i got for thee...

went Bliss for dinner today! dear and i has been eyeing on the pasta and calamari for ages...finally a taste of it... superb! ate the seafood pasta, mussels, prawns and the dory fish that was unfresh but dear said it was fresh...

went plaza play pool...dear's obsessed with the ave8's cat...haha.hope he can bring it home.if i can, i would too. but but but. ive alr got my darling jewel.

both of us plan to adopt a pet. cat or dog doesn't matter. the best is both! hahaas.

saw wayne on the channel U tv show (you hua jiu shuo) and dear got so excited...lols!!!

gotto work tmr...OVER!

aye

i have been a good girl yst and today...

went hougang mall with family to eat dinner. ate Xiao Xuan Feng. Hahahs! what could be nicer than food! especially yummy yummy xiao long bao! my all-time fav :))

ate la mian (the chef pull it themselves), xiao long bao and some cold chicken.

very tired now...

One word about NDP preview- Whoohoo!!!

went with my family. Had 2 tickets at the yellow stand and 2 tickets at blue stand. So papa went with mummy and i with bro...haha fun!

collected the funpack.the guy was kind enough to let me and bro choose the colour..as long as we were sitted we started to check out wats inside.hahaa..the bag has everything and anything..just like doraemon's pocket!

while waiting,bro and i were munching the zinger meal all the way till the show started..partied along with the supporters.did the marina wave-beautiful..the whole place look so absolute stunnning when everybody waved the flag tgt.

it was totally a new twist for this year's NDP.Had the arts singer singing..then the parade and ceremony. All supporting contingents held an umbrella this year. After that was the army 3D dynamic display.didn't know that the Police Coast Guard Boat could actually turn 360 degrees on water.

After that, was the performance.quite boring. saw my sec sch performing. then was the grand finale!!!

fireworks aha!singaporeans are really very excited to see fireworks...it's just chemicals in the air...but nevertheless ya it was nice...

parade ended..brought bro out,squeezed all the way thru.meet our parents at macs ad headed for dinner.went secret recipe,sat down and suddenly we feel like eating swensens.walked all the way to suntec with the 4 heavy bags.

papa couldnt find his car in the carpark..but as i said if you're fated with your car sure can find de..haha

had dinner with jor today at AMK sumo house...cause i wanted to eat jap food..nice nice and cheap..i treated dear to dinner today!!

ate katsu-don and he ate mackeral bento..and we ordered a breaded scallop that taste yucky and oily...dear, mus go there eat again ok..told him green tea is good for health so mus drink more!

health tip time!
GREEN TEA

It is a very good antioxidant and it helps lower blood cholesterol..so drink it after meal...so drink it to prevent cancer! breast cancer especially for women (:

whoohoos!!
long time no update update

planned to go science centre today..but i overslept. didn't feel well today. wanna watch the omni theatre movie something abt human body..whoohos fun fun.

so postpone the plan to tmr

im tired of such life..wish i could take a looonngg l0ooonngg break from it...wanna go back taiwan..food and shopping...miss the xiao long bao and extra big fried chicken..

meidan:

Your that particular entry really made me cry...haha..the old carmen wong..yeah..back to those good old days where we had our girls session..in our blue uniform...sitting outside the chapel praying for the rain to stop for our pop...slacking beside the jukebox shouting out to charmaine: Charmaine, Carmen love you!!!...the time when you screamed so loud in the toilet during the grand opening ceremony and everyone looked up to the 3rd flr wondering wat was that scream for? hahaass..

hahaa...those were the times with u, u know? past memories really makes one heart-ache =)

im trying so hard to get back to the past

Mr stacy/ariel rebel


u can jolly well dl all the **** photos u want.and i carmen wong wun give a damn!llalalaa..get this clear.i wun let u affect my life, my mood, my day

that day came back from Minds camp..bathed..slept till 10 plus..woke up and ate 2 xiao long bao, couldn't resist the temptation though i was very tired..went back to sleep again all the way till afternoon..woke up ate lunch and went back sleep again all the way till 6pm..so i was practically sleeping all day long.

having headaches every now and then..need time to relac relac..but where and when...? hai..stress.

when will you ever go away

I'm finally 18!!!



can buy alcohol.cigarette (useless to me), watch M18 shows and lastly go clubbing!! yeahs!

hahaha

finally a legal age to do all this! no more 17!



went beach to tan today..the water was clear.. catched fishes today..15 tiny fishes..just by plastic cup..one by one catch! so damn fun! haha...spent most of the time catching fish fish fish..put all of them into a big gulp cup..haha



also caught a pink jellyfish. but it died. cause stupid jordan went to poke it till all the tentacles dropped out and still went to bury it RIP somemore...

funfunfun...had dinner at Swensens with family and jordan..bought the swensens special cake..ate till so full..hmm..but hungry now...

bad news,dear lost his whole bag and box of personal items..we left it outside my house but lazy to bring in..heehee..den now lost..super depress!

tired le shall turn in early =)

to the guy u know who you are.this song is specially dedicated to you.read the lyrics alrite.and reflect upon yr wrongdoings!

if man could only love 1 woman at any point of time.
THE SUN WILL RISE FROM THE WEST!

hahaa..yeahs! recieved my very first bdae card from jasper.sweet guy. never fails to send a handmade snoopy family card for every occasion round the year...haha.thanx my friend!

plans for this week..wanna go chiong ah!!

finally got hold of my comp to blog.

irritating bro,keep hijacking the comp!



went to pasir ris park yst again.this time to tan!!!

waddled in the seawater.aint that clean though...haha..the sun was so perfect for tanning.



and guess wat! i am the inventor of sandology! it's called the sand massage therapy!



step number 1

Lie down on the beach



step number 2

Get some normal sand, put it on the back of the person. Gently pat and massage the sand off. Bit by Bit till the back is cleared. This is to first create a gentle start for the person making him feel relax as the sand used in the first step has a even texture. Remember to tell the person to close the eyes and mouth at all times during this process.



step number 3

Use only the fine sand that is extremly hot as small particles trap heat better than larger granules of sand. Get a handful of hot fine sand and leave it on the back of the person. Use about 1kg of sand. Let the hot sand rest a few minutes on the person's back before u gently pat and massage off the sand again. This process helps in the blood circulation of the person's body and improves digestion.



step number 4

Use only coarse and wet sand. This will cool down the hot body from the previous massage. Apply the sand on top of the body. Let the water flow down to remove the heat. After that, clear off the sand and give a light massage.

step number 5

Wash off all sands in the sea and hydrate yourself with plenty of water. Don't forget to thank the massager =)

super pissed off with the things that happened dis 2 days...wat else..
good for you,you found yr the other half.need a calculator?find it yrself.

went pasir ris park today.din go swimming. had a 5 mins lesson on blading with dear. hmm...fell before i could even blade and bled...hee thanx dear help me wear and take off the shoe! wuhahawuhaha

TRUST

ok this big big word.seems like it's really lacking in MY relationship.wat is trust totally?it is the assured reliance on the character,strength or truth of someone or something.

don ever say "I never,pls trust me can" only fools will believe it.and reality have proven me my say right!

When trust is undermined and we feel disappointed or betrayed by a lie or exploited by a broken promise. Expectations are shattered. We feel a sense of loss that a loved one didn't respect us enough to be honest with us. In short, we feel violated and diminished!!!

i will always agree to this: The more important the relationship, the more we feel betrayed and devastated by the result of a loss of trust

went friends surfing ard friendster...looked thru many old friends.haha all have changed so much =) feel that i'm missing out so much in life..the fun with all my squadmates and ex-classmates..we seems to be so dispersed now..with schooling and relationship(ya im guilty)

just miss those times really so much! if we could have a gathering...how nice.miss the blue uniform..the times back in SJC..a place where i call home...

dan,yiying,sand,yueying,sze hwee,fang,adel,von,joyce,chung,mich,veron,jac,gen

i miss you ppl so much

if time could move back...

hasn't been feeling right for the past few days...i do have a moodswinging problem huh
did we really made the right choice to move back?or are we jus creating more problems.any idea how far is Sembawang from Punggol?it's such a waste of time travelling when we could spend the time wisely.

your heart is questionable.i won't continue to waste my teardrops on someone who doesn't deserve it.

take it or leave it.

im diarroea-ing!

yst ate too much...had dinner with dear and fellow friends plus freddy...ate western food as it was freddy's-friend-mum's shop...treated

aft dinner went to J8 to watch movie-PIrates of th cArribean! watched the midnight show at 12.20...went cafe Cartel meanwhile to slack..hahaa..ate ice cream and ice cream waffles...woohss!again it was treated!

watched all the way till 3 plus plus...haha freddy sent us all home..7 ppl in the car...sat on dear's lap..poor thing...treated

today is the last day that we will be living there le....5 months exactly my dear...soooooSOOOOO much much memories within such short time...life will b better this way ba...but still i'll miss the late night actions!

I can be your hero,
baby I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

mood-swinging again...somehow somewhat someway i lost the touch of this whole relationship...numbed...who's fault is it exactly?or are we just being tgt for the sake of being tgt...move it back

M SOSOSO BORED!

nyp's wireless so no use..NO friendster,NO you-tube,NO neopets!!!
boring boring boring...

hungry + cold + bored + without you = ????

how can a stupid laptop statisfy me...cant talk,cant laugh,cant entertain me...

ok see, this is my plan when i've move back,my food plan

food on my wanted list
-chilli crab
-western food
-more xiao wo mian!
-KFC 2 piece chicken meal!

heex...set set set..

in sch now!
it ppPoured heavily jus now...
"die-reared" in the morning, stomach hurt so bad...bad bad bad i flushed the toilet 3 times before EVRYTHING was cleared!!!ahahahaha

geex..dear made me a ppt yst night at like 1am...haha...a microsoft idiot like him actually did a whole ppt by himself..haha...with lots of nice animation and stuffs...haha..was touched to tears u know...at the very last page he wrote: W*** Y** M**** M*....HAa secret....

my hands are peeling from all those belaying activities...bored bored bored...

Bacckk!

2 dAYs one night camp...was an attachment camp.

St.Mary of the Angels.it was a church camp

I was attached to another trainer 'Is'..his name..went for an excursion ard the campsite...den was attached to a group of church students...haha our group was called "care"..weird name ah..

wasn't that open to them at first..felt so shy and dunno wat to say..it's my first camp group!comprises of students from SEc 1-3...

it was a total new experiene..was shocked that one trainer had to actually take bout a group of 15-20 plus students!was really quite threatening at first...but slowly as i learnt from Is that we have to get composed when talking to them and most imptly show them who's the boss!!!

didn't have much activities on the first day..most of the RRArra-ing come from the trainers. did archery and rock wall...3 cheers!! haha..i got to do the archery with them! it was my first time using the bow and arrow..was so cool mann!den was the rock wall session....belayed the students...flewed up a few times..cause my anchorman wasn't really tt strong...the helpers were mostly the students..being a trainer really felt so diff...i was completly in whole charge for the belaying..helping the students to check,to open the carrebinas for them..

too bad the weather wasn't that good..it rained..so many campers didn't get to climb the wall...had campfire that lasted for 2 hours..then debrief and lights off...

took a bathed had trainer's debrief..den orh orh...well something happened to dear annd his attacher...heard something that shouldn't hear..stunned!slept at 2 plus...woke up at 4 plus..thanks to dear..hahaa...called me to acc him go out..so tired and shag le leh..but..still he's my dear =) so went out met him..sat along the bunks corridor and stoned for an hour...

next morning...i was suppose to take charge of the group le.wohoho..my charge...started to open up to the group a lil..did (zipline)flying fox...my job was bringing them down after they fly and remove the pulley thingy...damn cool learning!
suddenly i recieved a bad news...Is wanted me to go up to fly...jia lat..was trying to be brave be brave!haha cas my campers was there...argh..i dun wanna go de...but no choice...

next act was river crossing...nothing much..jus saw my group getting more bonded probably cas they are out from their comfort zone...being more bonded with them oso...


learnt alot of being a trainer during this 2 day one night...super many things to take note..
but aftall it was fun!

unfair?!

you think your life's unfair?!!wats the defination of unfair---not fair; not conforming to approved standards, as of justice, honesty, or ethics..you think you're honest?or do you even have any ethics?

HAH!then wat abt mine "unfairness"?wat right do you have to complain.just shut up and stop your swearings and attitude.

like i said-women are men puppet

women
are like puppets of men.who are we exactly in this society???men are creatures.creatures with no feelings.when they need you,all the nice words comes out.when they found their own heaven they simply just chuck you aside.do men really have RESPONSIBILITY?or are women treated as a LIABILITY to them.being allowed to get manupilated by men is the worst thing a women can recieve..puppets!women are nothing but puppets...

down with all men!

woots!
finally found the time to change my blogskin... at like 4 plus 5 in the morning.cant slp-super high

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!!!

it simply means fantastic or wonderful =))

mother's day

went AMK hosp to visit grams, mr mao tagged along :) kinda mini family gathering at the hospital..only shu zhen's family and mine...partied there..haha..ate quite alot..aft tt went to meet mr mao's mama for dinner part 2.eat again.no worries!eating's practically my past-time!

saturday

woke up in the morning half dead...no choice :( time past soOoO slowly.felt like dropping anytime.endure and endure all the way till dinner time..went HOugang mall- MAgic WOks ...ate the ala carte BUFFET! suddenly i wasn't tired nor sleepy anymore..hahaha...ma mao was too tired to chew..had a total of 7 ppl eating.joked ard played ard..laughed and laughed non-stop..

*i think i know something is still wrong,i sensed it.

IT"S TODAY!!
woke up at 6am plus today...was so drowsy and lethargic...but had to wake up for today's InnoTrek trainer course..heh wif dear and huikang.$70 per person lei

went all the way to Lim Chu Kang, Sarimbun Scouts Campsite...was alr half an hour's late but there were ppl later than us la..haha. had some ice breaking session...my eyes were practically gg to close anytime..we were den further splitted into 2 groups. was in diff grp with my dude. a lil boring for the 1st part of the day wif objective setting and SOP..long story..not much diff from CIBTC (=

THEN!IT STARTED TO POUR!!there goes our high rope ob..rained all the way till aft lunch...abit more of lect on being an instructor there..TADA~~finally we get to go to the high rope ob area..all of us had to take turns in becoming a belayer,climber,spotter,rope manager and blah blah blah..

didn't expect the pole was so damn high when i climbed..it looked so low from below..my hands were soaked..btw, we had to climb only half of the pole and i'm alr freaking out lei..cant imagine me climbing to the top..
did free fall, felt like the whole world was spinning "FALLING!"...giddy ah..had lots of fun thru out..spent most of the time di siaoing siaong others and laughing like there was no tmr..partially oso due to our wonderful trainer mates...16 of us, majority are waiting for uni or NS, think i was the youngest among all

played other games--climbing the wall and some mini games which we had to coonduct ourselve for the group..went home at 7pm plus..the road out was super long and dark but enjoyable...

went for dinner at LJS.took mrt back...in the train...di siaoed siaoed ppl again la..dear purposely set his spring kiss kiss as the ringtone and i purposely called him.imagine the attention we were drawing..-laughs-

all "dieded" on the bus 88 back..no more energy..haahaaaha

fruitful day indeed...dear know dis is wat u always wan us to do tgt, quite stupid ah me? alr got phobia for heights but still thick skinned go for this course knowing i'll have to do all the high rope obs..excreted so much perspiration!anyway realli appreciated yr company thru out the whole day ((((:

in sch in sch!

finally get to blog...having stomachache now..
imagine eating ice cream at like 2 am..hahas.

i think i've planned my future..i'll study and get this dip..and i'll sign on to be a police! but if possible (which i think will not) i'll go uni to further study...

yeaps..so far so boring

blog song damn nice..got it from kong rui..hey gal dun be too upset ya??come to me if u neeed a ear to listen to kk =)

tsktsktsk...still cant slp...shall wake mr mao up in half an hour time to eat breakfast. sumptous breakfast.

i cant sleep...too many things are going thru my mind...













or should i say too many food...

ahaa..im very very very hungry now..no food no food no food..hmphs..it's like pouring out there now..cats and dogs..bad weather...wanna cycle out to eat prata but..TSK! im sooo hungry..
MR mao is as usual_slping.zzZzZ..

no food no sleep~

set me free from all the hatred and love

im tired of loving you, it's hardwork and u don appreciate it at all..

now that it has all ended, a new journey begins..a life without you wad kind of life would that be?
you are free to love whoever u want now and i wun give a damn.

a bitch and a jerk

aloha!^^

finally i get to choose CDS (cross disiplinary subjects)...making a choice of french, psychology creativity, english phonetics or sociology...definitely wun choose wad china studies bout their history and stuffs..sure fail..

hahaas..yst was jormen's one yr ani...however we got sch..went out to meet ahmad,huikang,qihao to go suntec...had dinner at pizza hut...5 ppl ate abt a total of 67 dollars..quite worth it...

went kovan, watched them play bowling..halfway dear n i played arcade...went ave 8 kopitiam ate supper and we had to walked all the way home..

~love u dude~
thanx for all the things you've done over the past one year..haha..will rmb all the stupid things we've done, all the monthsary, all the quarrels, all the good times we shared and the downfalls. and thank me for finding you for giving you sucha wonderful life eh! hahaha.

one love, one lifetime.

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words hold my hand
In other words darling kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing forevermore
You are all I hope for
All I worship and adoreI
n other words please be true
In other words I love you


HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY DEAR!!!

has been ages since i last blog
no mood for blogging yea
hols great..of all days sch's starting at 23rd April.

slacking thru out the whole of march and april..life's great!
watching late night movies,going for night cycling...haha cycling all the way from hougang to AMK jus for dinner, den to NYP all the way to hougang park play soccer..

went home, realised dear lost his specs, cycle all the way back to hougang park to conduct a search..HAHA cycle till my butt was sore..


memoirs of my time

whooot!

gongg xi fa cai =))


papa bought a new dress for me..preety pretty..blue de
....

new yr eve..watch fireworks and bian pao with jor..den went shopiing for goodies...hehs..bought coconut...kena squashed like mad at the junction..so funn!soO..xin nian qi fen!no train or bus home..took cab

had diner wif aunt and family...den met dear to go chun dao he pan...walked and walked...no bus home..in the end took cab again...rich ah



26th FEB! main exam day!!!5 subjects to take..wth KNS...humph...5 days in a row

SINCE JERKS CANT KEEP THEIR PROMISES..WHY SHOULD I KEEP MINE?!BE A FOOL AND STICK TO YOU LIKE A LEECH?GET A LIFE MANN!

beware: I BITE!!!

have you seen my campus at night before???

it's beautiful....

apologise for the past few unpleasant posts...words from my heartt

yeah...im studying very hard now u know?...

have you seen my campus at night before???

it's beautiful....

apologise for the past few unpleasant posts...words from my heartt

yeah...im studying very hard now u know?...

have you seen my campus at night before???

it's beautiful....

apologise for the past few unpleasant posts...words from my heartt

yeah...im studying very hard now u know?...

Love is Patient

We expect our spouse to cater to us immediately after one reminder or two. When we don’t get what we want and at the time desired, we become irritated or angry. But being patient means allowing, accommodating and accepting the other person’s ideas, values, personality and mannerism. So we need to constantly remind ourselves: “Am I loving when I don’t accommodate my spouse’s ways? Do I show love when I don’t accept my spouse’s point of view?” We know for certain that we do not practice love at that particular moment since a loving heart is a patient heart.

Little things inevitably happen in our lives and in our homes. Misunderstanding and conflict come to every home. During such moments, we get angry and sulk. We tend to blame: Why must I suffer the hurt and tantrum? Why should I bear the injury? Why must I endure the accusation? Why should I accept the slight? But, for any family relationship to flourish we need patience to humbly resolve the conflict. And, patience means accepting, bearing, enduring, over-looking, suffering the slights, shortcomings, blame, accusation, tantrums, injuries and hurts, without retaliation. Thus we must regularly ask: “Am I spending time to patiently cultivate the family relationship? Have I been patient to grow our relationship? Do I neglect to improve our relationship because I am impatient?

In order to be able to develop this loving patience we have to learn to forgive readily and endlessly.

Patience means accepting, enduring, suffering the slights, injuries, hurts inflicted by people

It is only patience that will help people become better than they are and make us better than we are.

FUCK OFF

swinging!~~~

it has been so long since i woke up MYSELF at 7 plus to come to sch...

heee...had csas "test" ya cute test...ez ez
later having FC lab test...kinda scared le

let me tell you:
you lead your life... i lead mine
from now onwards, i wun give a damn on wad attitude alrites
im utterly dissapointed wif u
a total lost of trust
a total lost of hope

gosh..wad am i doing here with my life...
ruining it with my own hands